things

so i just got back to tech today after winter break. and i feel like i'm already falling apart. i forgot SO much stuff at home and i haven't started unpacking, even though i've been here for like 7 hours. i can't believe this is it; my last semester of college. how the fuck did this happen so fast? i definitely don't feel like i'm ready for 'real life.' the fact that just thinking about graduating makes me want to vomit/hyperventilate/go into hibernation forever/start laughing hysterically and never stop....probably isn't a good thing.

moving on to less traumatic topics. there was a qotd a while ago of things you want to do before you kick it. and i need to start a list. so here goes:

.go to antarctica
.be a mom
.publish a book
.get many meaningful tattoos
.go surfing in hawaii
.learn to relax
.read war and peace, the bible, and everything else i possibly can
.cook a gourmet meal (or two)
.be a strict vegan for at least a year
.have a penpal (for more than a month)
.dye all of my hair a color that doesn't grow naturally on humans
.get a kitten! and a hedgehog!
.adopt
.join a book club
.be truly happy
.learn more about my religion (and others)
.become proficient at yoga
.participate in a spontaneous musical number
.help rebuild something (a home, a community, anything)
.let go
.go on a road trip
.learn another language fluently

mmm. yeah that's all i have for now. i'll probably add more later. i feel like a list like this isn't something that should be static; like once i cross all of these off then it's ok to die. definitely not.

i really need to post more.