5 posts tagged “terrifying”
i need to get motivated to move forward. everything around me seems half baked; as if i can't face actually finishing things because that will move me closer to graduation and closer to real life and closer to the fact that i have finished college and that's as far as i've gotten. i know it won't be the end of the world if i take some time off but i'm terrified of getting stuck. what if i just stay on permanent vacation, working at starbucks living in va beach for the rest of my life?! geh. i would hate myself.
i can't even bring myself to write. which is bad because i'm in a poetry class this semester with nikki giovanni. so i mean, no pressure or anything.
i've been on kind of a reading kick. i just read shopgirl by steve martin. it was pretty good. very sweet and a quick read. i think it's one of those books that you have to read a few times to get everything out of it. but basically i'd recommend it if you want something short and fun.
i'm just starting in cold blood by truman capote. it's alright so far. a little bit slow, but i'm
i've actually already started an even scarier book but have kind of stalled out on it because it's not really small enough to carry around with me to read before class and such. i found out about it from curtis while i was at home over break. i had to have barnes&noble order it because it just looks amazing. all the typography and color and and pretty much i can just geek out about how it looks. then i started reading it and realized that this was probably going to be one of my most favorite books ever. you
ok i'm going to go try and be productive. maybe even write a little bit of poetry. who knows. if i get anything decent written i'll post it here.
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so i just got back to tech today after winter break. and i feel like i'm already falling apart. i forgot SO much stuff at home and i haven't started unpacking, even though i've been here for like 7 hours. i can't believe this is it; my last semester of college. how the fuck did this happen so fast? i definitely don't feel like i'm ready for 'real life.' the fact that just thinking about graduating makes me want to vomit/hyperventilate/go into hibernation forever/start laughing hysterically and never stop....probably isn't a good thing.
moving on to less traumatic topics. there was a qotd a while ago of things you want to do before you kick it. and i need to start a list. so here goes:
.go to antarctica
.be a mom
.publish a book
.get many meaningful tattoos
.go surfing in hawaii
.learn to relax
.read war and peace, the bible, and everything else i possibly can
.cook a gourmet meal (or two)
.be a strict vegan for at least a year
.have a penpal (for more than a month)
.dye all of my hair a color that doesn't grow naturally on humans
.get a kitten! and a hedgehog!
.adopt
.join a book club
.be truly happy
.learn more about my religion (and others)
.become proficient at yoga
.participate in a spontaneous musical number
.help rebuild something (a home, a community, anything)
.let go
.go on a road trip
.learn another language fluently
mmm. yeah that's all i have for now. i'll probably add more later. i feel like a list like this isn't something that should be static; like once i cross all of these off then it's ok to die. definitely not.
i really need to post more.
i mentioned earlier i was taking the LSATs and that i would post about how i did. well, i got my scores back about a week ago. i did alright but not awesome, so i'm not sure if i'm still going to apply to law school or not. meh.
on a happier note: HALLOWEEKEND. so much fun. so much alcohol. so much face paint...
the puppy compels you!!!
also. today was the first day of course request. i have mixed feelings because i'm pretty sure i'll get most, if not all of the classes i request because of my senior status, which is awesome, but at the same time this is the beginning of the end.
this is the last time i will have to request classes at virginia tech, and the first time i have to think seriously about graduation. it makes me feel queasy to think about leaving here; it seems like just yesterday i was moving in as a freshman. people warned me that these four years would go by quickly, but i had no idea they would fly by so fast. i have had fun and learned a lot, but i am constantly doubting my level of preparedness for "the real world." *shudder* anyway. i'm kind of looking forward to next semester because i'm going to get to take some fun and hopefully interesting classes. i'm requesting:
medical dilemmas and human experience
sociology of death
ethical theory
language and logic
wines and vines
i have never taken any sociology or philosophy classes at tech so this should be fun. i really hope i get the schedule i requested; if i do get it i won't have any friday classes! hooray for 3day weekends!
well i'm going to go watch more arrested development (go watch some if you never have. it is amazing.) my family introduced me to it and now i'm hooked. must. keep. watching.
so much for returning to reality...i'll do it next week.
What was the first movie you remember seeing in a movie theater?
Question submitted by mainmor.
the first movie i ever saw in a movie theater was the little mermaid.
i remember it pretty vividly because i was terrified of Ursula the sea witch, especially in that part at the end where she gets electrocuted and you can see her whole skeleton. yeah that image stuck with me for a while.
it was also a special event because it was one of those daddy-daughter dates. my sister was still really little and my mom was pregnant/didn't feel well enough to go or something so it was just me and my dad, which was always something i looked forward to because he was away a lot.
and all those people running around hyperfocusing on phallic symbols etc need to just chill out. it is a great movie, with some awesome songs (come on, who doesn't like "kiss the girl"?) and it always makes me cry at the end when Ariel leaves her dad and sisters.
man. i really want to go buy it on dvd now...
