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music, stress, communism, escape

nobody@vox.com(annebonny) — Sun, 15 Oct 2006 17:14:53 -0400

i don't really know what happened to me these past few weeks. i think it was just all too much and i kind of shut down and began to avoid reality. i pretty much took all last week off - i didn't do much of anything, and while the break was nice, i think i'm ready to go back to real life.
all of this stressingness started like three weeks ago but the real trigger was september 28 -- i drove to and from charlottesville in one evening with a group of friends to go see of montreal. seriously probably one of the best shows i've ever been to. the band was amazing and i got to hang out with emily for a little too so that was nice. some of the kids at the show were so awkward but i was there with jeff and siri and ryanharne so it was more fun than anything.

Of Montreal

everyone in the band was so cute too. i just wanted to hug all of them.

but honestly, the drive to and from charlottesville killed me. especially since i was averaging about 5hours of sleep per night that week. it didnt really help that less than 48 hours later i took the LSAT at 8:30 am. they went alright (i hope) but after i was done with that 4.5 hour testing extravaganza my brain felt like oatmeal. mmmm.
well after the test i ran and got dressed and went to the (very disappointing) VT vs. GA Tech game....i was slightly upset that i hadn't skipped the game to nap, but there was no time to cry over what had already happened. there were things to do! like get jeff's apartment set up for our sweet communist party.

seriously. if you are ever looking for a fun time, throw your friends a communist party. it's fairly simple. here are the steps we followed that worked amazingly well:

   1. buy lots of vodka. we went with about 5 handles and used 2 for punch, and about half of one for jello shots and the rest were for straight shots. we had a lot left over, but we only had maaaybe 20ish people drinking. you know your friends so estimate accordingly. also we got vladimir instead of aristocrat vodka - just to give our party that extra little russian touch.
   2. color is key. basically everything at our party was red or yellow. we had red punch. red and yellow jello shots. red solo cups. red wall decor and all the guests were required to wear red (dress codes should be strictly and evenly enforced.)
   3. remember: no one is special. in the USSR individual birthdays were not celebrated, everyone is the same. it was actually one of my friend's 21st birthday, so we made a comrade cake and there was no singing. we also encouraged the use of the title COMRADE.

Cake!

4. drink. a lot. remember it's cold in the former soviet union, you have to keep warm somehow!

so yes. have fun with your communist party. and if you throw one/want help throwing one let me know, i will be all over that.

anyway. back to the story of not sleeping enough and drinking too much. after the party we spent sunday recovering. then hell week began. on october 5 i had three tests in a row, genetics, plant biology and introductory parasitology. after the parasitology exam i was walking back to my room and i was so tired i just ate it on the drill field...i still have a pretty nasty cut on my foot.
the next day i had a 6page paper due and then a lab practical in parasitology lab. immediately after the lab practical i got into my car, picked up siri and sam and drove to virginia beach. it was nice and rainy out and since drivers in virginia are stupid it took us 7 hours to get home. blahhhh. we picked up emily in charlottesville, so it was a nice full ride, much better than driving alone and exhausted.
it was crazy being home since i hadn't been home since late july. mom is pretty lonely only having isaac at home, and he's a pretty busy kid so she's alone a lot, that was kind of hard to see. i also went and saw james. i don't really know what compelled me. i mean i kind of do, but it's hard to explain in words...especially on the internet. anyway. that went horribly and basically made me feel like a terrible person. and it was sad because james is an awesome guy; we used to have a lot of fun together.
the important thing to derive from this, though, is that home was emotionally draining. and i was still on the no more than about 5ish hours of sleep per night plan. we left home on monday afternoon, much much later than expected/wanted and after a 1.5hour delay in charlottesville with emily and harris teeter we got back to tech around 9:30.
after everyone got all dropped off i back tracked it to roanoke and picked up one of my residents who had flown home to new york for the break and needed a ride back. so pretty much i was driving on and off for almost 12 hours. gross.

so after all that i decided to avoid reality for pretty much an entire week. i didn't really do much school work and i went to the bare minimum of classes. i got full blown sick the day after we got back to school, so i got to use that as an excuse instead of trying to relay that whole story you just heard to everyone and their mom.
sorry for the long and whiny post. i wanted to catch you all up on where i am and what i've been doing. i don't want to neglect this blog, and i really miss writing so i'm going to try to update once a week at the very very minimum.

things to look forward to: final undergrad course request session (next week), lsat scores posted (two weeks)

here are some more photos from the communist party. enjoy:

pile o'communists

shadyshady

classic pose

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self-fulfilling prophecy

nobody@vox.com(annebonny) — Tue, 25 Jul 2006 18:40:28 -0400

this is why i was hesitant about getting vox. i always either forget to update or abstain from updating because i don't have anything to write about. it's depressing to me to feel like i have nothing to write about so that doesn't help matters either. i'm not about to start blogging about my day because nothing super exciting happens and blogging about going to kroger and taking naps is boring, no one wants to read about that. gr.

other annoying things in my life include, hyperactive swimming lesson students, orientation kids, not getting enough sleep, being hungry but not wanting to eat, being hot all the time, having no drive and the impending doom of fall RA training. SO depressing.

but it's not all bad. i mean i found out that because of summer school and the classes i'm signed up for next fall i'll actually finish my biology degree after fall semester, so that means next spring all i have to do is finish 8 credits of Medicine and Society classes and take fun classes!! i really want to take ceramics and i'll probably throw in a couple philiosophy classes since i'm interested in ethics and all.

Stevie

so this past weekend i was like glued to iFC. i watched this documentary called Stevie which was terrifying and morbidly interesting. i couldn't stop watching it. you should really check it out sometime. i mean who doesn't want to watch an entire film about this good-looking individual....

just to switch things up i later watched Velvet Goldmine for the first time.

Brian Slade

James is all about this movie, and i really enjoyed Hedwig and the Angry Inch (an amazing film you should all watch.) which is kind of along the same "genderbending rockstar" lines. Velvet Goldmine was good but also a little upsetting; i think it's because the whole movie had this overwhelming sense of destruction. you should definitely watch it sometime though, some of the make up and costumes are amazing and who doesn't like pretty boys?

i'm going home to va beach tomorrow. that always brings mixed feelings but i think it will be alright. it's going to be just isaac and me because emily and mom will be in charlottesville for emily's orientation; that will be a little less stressful, but still a whole lot of driving. it's annoying because this is the last time i'll be home for a pretty long while and it's really reminding me that i don't really get any "vacation" at all this summer break. i also hate that i never get to see everyone i want to when i come home because there just aren't enough hours in the day.

anyway. i need to pack/get some work done. if you're in va beach call me and we can try to make plans around my brother's schedule.
hearts!

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thinking.

nobody@vox.com(annebonny) — Thu, 20 Jul 2006 09:59:10 -0400

do you ever have the desire to stay up all night just so that you can feel tired? or just not eat so you can remind yourself what it feels like to be hungry?

The Unbearable Lightness of Being : A Novel (Perennial Classics)

Milan Kundera

try it sometime. i'm not saying you should make yourself miserable,

i'm just saying that pain is what
reminds us we're alive.

go read the unbearable lightness of being, milan kundera is basically amazing.

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