6 posts tagged “whining”
Video: Show us some great dancing.
these make me smile.
also apparently i like groupings of three.ugh. i feel like death. all of my teachers have decided to have everything due this week before thanksgiving break.
i'll be going home to virginia beach on monday so all i have to do is get through two more short papers. one 15 page paper with accompanying 15 minute presentation. and the cold.so. close.
Hi Abigail.
We hope to make a decision by the end of the month. Thank you for your patience.
you are certainly testing my patience National Center for Ethics in Healthcare.
*hopes they don't read this and then decide to not offer me the internship*
in other news. jeffrey and i are taking a road trip to Chicago this weekend.
i'm excited!
i need to get motivated to move forward. everything around me seems half baked; as if i can't face actually finishing things because that will move me closer to graduation and closer to real life and closer to the fact that i have finished college and that's as far as i've gotten. i know it won't be the end of the world if i take some time off but i'm terrified of getting stuck. what if i just stay on permanent vacation, working at starbucks living in va beach for the rest of my life?! geh. i would hate myself.
i can't even bring myself to write. which is bad because i'm in a poetry class this semester with nikki giovanni. so i mean, no pressure or anything.
i've been on kind of a reading kick. i just read shopgirl by steve martin. it was pretty good. very sweet and a quick read. i think it's one of those books that you have to read a few times to get everything out of it. but basically i'd recommend it if you want something short and fun.
i'm just starting in cold blood by truman capote. it's alright so far. a little bit slow, but i'm
i've actually already started an even scarier book but have kind of stalled out on it because it's not really small enough to carry around with me to read before class and such. i found out about it from curtis while i was at home over break. i had to have barnes&noble order it because it just looks amazing. all the typography and color and and pretty much i can just geek out about how it looks. then i started reading it and realized that this was probably going to be one of my most favorite books ever. you
ok i'm going to go try and be productive. maybe even write a little bit of poetry. who knows. if i get anything decent written i'll post it here.
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i don't really know what happened to me these past few weeks. i think it was just all too much and i kind of shut down and began to avoid reality. i pretty much took all last week off - i didn't do much of anything, and while the break was nice, i think i'm ready to go back to real life.
all of this stressingness started like three weeks ago but the real trigger was september 28 -- i drove to and from charlottesville in one evening with a group of friends to go see of montreal. seriously probably one of the best shows i've ever been to. the band was amazing and i got to hang out with emily for a little too so that was nice. some of the kids at the show were so awkward but i was there with jeff and siri and ryanharne so it was more fun than anything.
everyone in the band was so cute too. i just wanted to hug all of them.
but honestly, the drive to and from charlottesville killed me. especially since i was averaging about 5hours of sleep per night that week. it didnt really help that less than 48 hours later i took the LSAT at 8:30 am. they went alright (i hope) but after i was done with that 4.5 hour testing extravaganza my brain felt like oatmeal. mmmm.
well after the test i ran and got dressed and went to the (very disappointing) VT vs. GA Tech game....i was slightly upset that i hadn't skipped the game to nap, but there was no time to cry over what had already happened. there were things to do! like get jeff's apartment set up for our sweet communist party.
seriously. if you are ever looking for a fun time, throw your friends a communist party. it's fairly simple. here are the steps we followed that worked amazingly well:
1. buy lots of vodka. we went with about 5 handles and used 2 for punch, and about half of one for jello shots and the rest were for straight shots. we had a lot left over, but we only had maaaybe 20ish people drinking. you know your friends so estimate accordingly. also we got vladimir instead of aristocrat vodka - just to give our party that extra little russian touch.
2. color is key. basically everything at our party was red or yellow. we had red punch. red and yellow jello shots. red solo cups. red wall decor and all the guests were required to wear red (dress codes should be strictly and evenly enforced.)
3. remember: no one is special. in the USSR individual birthdays were not celebrated, everyone is the same. it was actually one of my friend's 21st birthday, so we made a comrade cake and there was no singing. we also encouraged the use of the title COMRADE.
so yes. have fun with your communist party. and if you throw one/want help throwing one let me know, i will be all over that.
anyway. back to the story of not sleeping enough and drinking too much. after the party we spent sunday recovering. then hell week began. on october 5 i had three tests in a row, genetics, plant biology and introductory parasitology. after the parasitology exam i was walking back to my room and i was so tired i just ate it on the drill field...i still have a pretty nasty cut on my foot.
the next day i had a 6page paper due and then a lab practical in parasitology lab. immediately after the lab practical i got into my car, picked up siri and sam and drove to virginia beach. it was nice and rainy out and since drivers in virginia are stupid it took us 7 hours to get home. blahhhh. we picked up emily in charlottesville, so it was a nice full ride, much better than driving alone and exhausted.
it was crazy being home since i hadn't been home since late july. mom is pretty lonely only having isaac at home, and he's a pretty busy kid so she's alone a lot, that was kind of hard to see. i also went and saw james. i don't really know what compelled me. i mean i kind of do, but it's hard to explain in words...especially on the internet. anyway. that went horribly and basically made me feel like a terrible person. and it was sad because james is an awesome guy; we used to have a lot of fun together.
the important thing to derive from this, though, is that home was emotionally draining. and i was still on the no more than about 5ish hours of sleep per night plan. we left home on monday afternoon, much much later than expected/wanted and after a 1.5hour delay in charlottesville with emily and harris teeter we got back to tech around 9:30.
after everyone got all dropped off i back tracked it to roanoke and picked up one of my residents who had flown home to new york for the break and needed a ride back. so pretty much i was driving on and off for almost 12 hours. gross.
so after all that i decided to avoid reality for pretty much an entire week. i didn't really do much school work and i went to the bare minimum of classes. i got full blown sick the day after we got back to school, so i got to use that as an excuse instead of trying to relay that whole story you just heard to everyone and their mom.
sorry for the long and whiny post. i wanted to catch you all up on where i am and what i've been doing. i don't want to neglect this blog, and i really miss writing so i'm going to try to update once a week at the very very minimum.
things to look forward to: final undergrad course request session (next week), lsat scores posted (two weeks)
here are some more photos from the communist party. enjoy:
so i'm in fall training for RAs and it's basically sucking the life out of me.
also my residents are evil.
so i keep watching this video to make myself feel better.
basically. i'm going to be too mentally drained to post anything of real value for the next few/several days, and for that i apologize.
i'll elaborate more later but i just want to say that driving to baltimore, dc, fredericksburg and back to blacksburg in a two day span probably isn't the best idea in the world.
while you may love all the people that you get to see by doing so, driving that much in such a short period of time leads physical and psychological pain.
also. if doing a road marathon you should probably pick a weekend that isn't like 90+ degrees everyday and you should only visit friends who have air conditioning. i did not do this and i don't think i have ever sweated more in my entire life.
last but not least. take pictures! i didn't take any and now i am sad because the friends i visited are elusive at best, and i only see them like once every million billion years.
other than that. i need to get excited and start moving my crap over to peddrew-yates, but i am not at all motivated. this probably has something to do with not getting a summer break at all, but i'm not 100% sure yet.
i promise my next post will be less whiny.
